Express myself~~~

R u a person who can express urself?? well...i admit tat i rili duno hw to express myself..i love family, i like sumbody ( like not love) , i love sumbody ( love not like) ..for me i will choose not to express it...no other reason , juz bcos i duno how to express,i cant bear the consequences if i rili say out..for famly coz i get used of it dy,i have been alone when grow up..sumtimes mayb parents care make me kinda feel pressure on it..so i rather choose to settle problem myself, unless any rili "BIG" problem that i rili cant settle it..

relationship love??? actually i am a person who rili scare alone...so i like crowd of frens go out togeta..i like noisy..frankly i dy duno wat's the feeling of relationship love,i bcum coward afr last time, got fren ask me:' r u keeping up ur heart dy?" i doubt on it:" maybe .." i scare of hurt ppl or being hurt, tis kind of feeling 1 time enuf dy.....but then sumtimes when saw ppl 2 by 2 rili make me lonely~~mayb...mayb..bcoz of my 不想麻烦人de character?? unless rili got important things ,if no i wun simply go trouble ppl..so even got fren rili wanna help me, unless " urgent" if no i will not be the person who say out 1st....bcoz i noe 我没有这么有资格让朋友为我费心费力。。

Evytime if u c me like happy go lucky person...actually i'm not ..juz bcoz i wun choose to show unhappy in front of frens, i will choose to try make talking topic rather than bcum the person who juz sit there to listen ony,i dun like to awkward situation..tat's y sumtimes it is hard for me to make start up a topic but i want the situation to b noisy...haha..it is contradiction..isn't it?? 就算是小丑也会有情绪低落的时候。。。if i rili cry i'll ony cry in front of my special person, not counted tat kind of unexpected or accidentally situation when i rili cant control my tear( i will cry oso when watch impressive drama or movie, i duno y i will cry tat time , maybe sensational?? or perceptual? ) ......

So...cheer up k??